tootsie rolls in your lap.

I was suppose to grocery shop tonight, it was on my weekly to do list. But after a long day, I found potatoes, chicken and broccoli to suffice my appetite. Besides, Im not in the mood for Trader Joes , and like any blogger with their God given rite to write when inspired, I conceded.

Things have been brought into a great perspective for me lately and I am grateful. And hence my forthcoming thoughts...

Life is short. Life is bitter-sweet, and as I listen to Alicia Keys: "It sure looks good to me."

Life is much like a parade. It can rain when least expected. Or it can be perfectly planned with perfect weather and we can get Tootsie Rolls thrown into our lap for no reason at all except for being at the side lines at the right place and right time. I remember as a kid, I loved parades. I grew up in Michigan and remember how special I felt walking away with a bag of cheap candy stuffed into my pockets. Sometimes you just need to wait on the side for your happiness to come.

In life you can crash and burn. But I'm sure you already knew that. But don't worry because that is how it supposed to be. We can fill our lives with empty people and space or we can breath love into each day at any given time and place. Even in foolish emotions, we are the most real we will ever be and in that time and place we know either Tootsie Rolls are in our lap or not.

After thirty-two years I do know some things. Maybe too much to blog about but in this particular blog I share with you this:

I know that only Lord knows if you will see another day or not.

I know to always kiss your loved one goodnight before you fall asleep. No matter what.

I know to let each and every hurt become a part of you rather than fighting its existence. Negativity will breed itself just fine without your conciousness fanning the flames.


I am filled with grattitude for every love and relationship I have encountered in my life. Friend, co-worker, lover, family, even foe, I am thankful for you. You teach me something everyday, within myself, and about the world we are in.

Life is amazing once you stop from your daily routine. We tend to get so dam caught up everyday, even as you are reading this think about your day and all that it entailed. Now stop because Im sure you get my gist. Another 12 hours of time...

Life is so much shorter than we perceive. We think we will live happily till our 90's or so and if we do, what a life!!! Not that we should ponder on this thought everyday but its easy to think we are young, healthy, and going to be here forever. You and I will not.

I am 32 and have lived so joyously and look forward to every winding corner and path ahead. Even if it should be the path less chosen. Even if its the path everyone else is on. Some paths may go astray but such the beauty is life. And it is that which makes every single one of us unique. Our choices and how we choose to handle our paths.

Personally, I think you have to take the time and acknowledgment to feel it ALL. I don't think it really counts if you don't cry when hit the floor, and I don't think it counts if you don't cry when you reach the top. It's not about the physical act of crying, (although I think it is an emotion too far suppressed in our society). It doesn't matter if you are a boy or a girl. We all feel the same. That is how life is supposed to be. It is, in my opinion, the only way to live. And the only way to love. We must clearly remember nothing lasts forever, even our precious Sun has about 100 million years left until all Helium and Hydrogen are gone. A sad thought to some, but a good motivation to make everyday count.

You always have to try. You always have to dream. You always will reach a point where you will have to risk it all. You always amust give joyously and receive with gratitude. Never stop whatever it is that will make you a better you. Remember you are here once and have a purpose. Your work and love are not done and still is much to be seen if you are willing to share.

You must be lost to be found. And found again to feel. Life truly is so sweet and precious. And it sure sure looks dam good to me. I'm ready for my next journey and hope you are too.

"The journey is the reward."
Chinese proverb

So simple but right on right? what are some other quotes you know of?

362 days of A- mazingness

I was never a believer in New year resolutions. To be honest, I dont even necessarrily like the idea of "time" and a new "year". Whats another birthday? If we are counting the days we are here, then we are not FULLY living in the moment. And in that moment, really there is no time and space.
However, I DO like the idea of having a new beginning, even if it means now you write 2011 on your checks and not 2010. And instead of resolutions, I think I would like to figure out how I want to be the changes I want be within myself and to others for the next 52 weeks plus infinity. Besides, ALL and any "resolutions" Ive ever set for myself, have ended up in the black hole of resolutions never carried out. How can I (or you) have 362 days of A-mazingness?
Now there are alot of things I want, a great self-fulfilling career in the non-profit sector, a hot bf, a puppy, a place of my own and so on and so on....So how do you connect all those things I want ( which are very tangible by the way) to my new beginning into 2011?
First off, I need to think more positively. I think the bulk of things that transpired in 2010 left a cloud over my head like grumpy care-bear. I totally need a care-bear stare to get out of that frame of mind. Some BIG doors may have closed permananetly this year for me. But windows will open (if they havent already), and I am grateful those doors were ever open in the first place. And if the window doesnt show up, guess what? there is always the doggy door... I had the chance to experience a year that will never be repeated in my life (same goes for you too). I have come to realize I need to be more careful and gracious to the things that happen around me, even if I preceive them negatively, because they are part of me, they are not bad at all. Love and inspiration are around every corner, you just have to be open to see it. So Im positively going to be more positive starting three days ago.
Im going to take more risks. I am a person that tends to take risks, but they are ever so calculated, betting that I will be more happy than sad if I choose to take that risk. But no more. I am going to really focus on putting what I have out there because in the end, I truly have nothing to lose. Well at least as long as I have let go of my pride and ego, I truly have nothing to lose. I have love from friends, family, and a good stickin head on my shoulders.
Lastly, Im going to try to be a better driver.... Yes for any of you that know me... Im not joking. Directions? That may be pushing it but I really need to hone in on some road rage and take a little more time to be a better driver. My stress level will decrease and maybe my friends can let me drive more. But then again, who am I kidding? 2 out 3 aint bad!!!!

What changes can you work on within yourself that will create 362 days of A-mazinginess for you? Maybe a change you can work on with a close friend, spouse, lover, or family? This can be calculated as you go through the year and see if there are any positive changes in your life? But for those of you exercising more, eating healthier, fighting your vices, I hope you stick with it and get the results you are looking for. Change is good if you can help mold the direction of where your destiny might take you.

Lets just check in with each other in 6 months and see how we are doing.... Maybe Ill even pick you up and we can share over some coffee/tea.